2024-09-18

      
      So, it is September 18th, 2024. I wrote this 2 days ago, on the 16th. There are two paths in life that I could take. One, I accept that we are no longer together, move on, become an unrecognizable man, find a different woman, make her my wife, have kids, and be happy. Or two, I spend time working on myself. And I come back into your life as an unrecognizable man, and make you my wife, have kids, and be happy. Both paths deserve a real unrecognizable man.

      Which path have I chosen? Path number two. Why? Because this is what I want to be part of my life's story.

      Do what you need to do, but a real man will be back, and I’m going to make you mine—and I say that in the most respectful way possible. Why? Because in this lifetime, you stole my heart. I wish I could explain it, but life is so mysterious.

      The next woman I will be with—and I say this in the most respectful way possible—will be you. I’m going to make you my wife and the mother of my children. Why? My heart wants that. I love you. Be safe. Take care.

      2 people who wanted to love. That in itself is commendable. Yes, toward the end, I blew up, and I am deeply sorry for my behavior and words, but that’s not who I want to be, and I hope you know that. I don’t want to be that person. My life would be easier if I was just a bitter person and was okay with that, but I'm not. I want to love deeply, that will be my biggest test, the real reason for living.

      So be ready. I’m coming back for you.  Goodbye for now, but I’ll be back. Be safe. I chose you, and actually life chose you for me. You’re the best gift I’ve ever received. You came to my doorstep, and I won’t reject this gift. It’s a gift I proudly accept. I’m proud of it, and I’m honored. I will be back.

      Te quiero.

      - Christian Jesus Memije